My stomach is in knots. I feel nauseas. I've got the runs. My leg won't stop shaking. WHAT did I just DO??? Oh I have to breathe...
I updated my resume. I put it up on America's Job Bank with an updated cover letter. And I applied for a JOB. Granted, it's supposed to be an at-home job... and DH says if I spend as much time online already with all the boards I host and the friends I IM with, then I can surely have time to work from home with a data entry or processing job. He's right. And I have to make at least a good faith effort since he lost his part-time night job (laid off remember? I blogged it). If I could get this position, even at the PT end and lower pay scale, I could still pull in $300 a week. If I could get FT it would be closer to $500 a week. There'd be NO financial worries at all AND I'd be at home.
But this scares the CRAP out of me. I don't even know why. It's not like I'd have to put on a suit that doesn't fit well every day. Hell, I wouldn't even have to brush my hair to "go to work." I wouldn't even have to find a babysitter. I know I'd be good at it, I did claims corrections and was a unit assistant for a bunch of nurses for a couple years through Aetna. I loved it, mainly because I never had to be on the phone with clients and set my own work pace. It was fun and I got a lot of work done. I love computers, maybe that's why. But I'm still scared to DEATH and VERY nervous. Hence the stomach issues all of a sudden. It's been 3 1/2 years since I was employed by anyone. And I don't count babysitting several times every week for my best friend. She brings her 2 kids over and I help her and her DH out, and she pays me. But it's like the kids are having a play date. And it's fun, not work.
Someone tell me this is the right thing to do. I already told Manny, and he's excited about it. We just hope it's legit and that they like me. What do I do if I have to do a live interview face-to-face though??? I don't have anything nice to wear that fits me right now. Not for an interview, anyway. Oh what if they call me? What if I get this?