I'm still sticking to my non-diet diet, and doing well but it's soooooooooo slow going. I know I'm making progress, even without a scale, because... uh don't laugh. A couple weeks ago I bought new skivvies and I made sure I bought them a little snug so that they'd be uncomfortable, and I'd be motivated in yet another way to stick to my diet. Who wants a whole drawer of skivvies that are too tight and too small? Well, I realized on Monday that they weren't so uncomfortably tight any more! WHOO HOO! And no, it's not from stretching them out. So there. This whole losing weight thing is just so frustrating and disappointing because honestly, I'm one of those people who loves and enjoys immediate results. Especially with losing weight. We're talking about someone who Before Kids could simply decide to lose weight and could as the situation warranted. But then again, I was never this heavy before kids either.
Today, my best friend for the past 21 years had gastric bypass surgery. I wish I could have visited her, but with Manny working and no one to watch the girls, I can't go. Her husband said the surgery went well, and she was sleeping both times he called, so I'll probably call her tomorrow to see how she's doing. I hope the surgery does for her what she wants it to do, and no, it's not just for weight loss. It's not my place to publicly post why, only that if you're the praying kind keep her in your prayers or thoughts that she recups fast from the surgery and that it does what we hope it will do for her.
I'm sure it's just because she had it done, and 2 other friends have had it done within the past 2 yrs, that I'm even thinking this, but I've been thinking "What if I did it? Could I tolerate the lifestyle change? Is it worth it?" A year ago I'd have said you were crazy if you told me that I was even thinking that. I don't know. I do know that Manny thinks I should consider it. That's a whole different issue. I posted about it on the BBC, let me see if I can find it...
Ah yes... this was from June 5th:
So Saturday night we were at my best friend's house for dinner, and I was joking with her that I if my insurance covered it 100% I should do it too. Well, apparently DH chose THAT comment to listen to when he'd been in a pissy mood with me all weekend and was ignoring me (I still don't know why) and Sunday night, he says innocently "You know, if you weren't serious about getting the bypass surgery, maybe you should be." I was a bit, well, shocked when he said that, and he kept dragging out a conversation about it! I felt like dookie! I mean, I've always eaten well, and recently I've been adjusting our diet so that it's really an excellent diet. Less carbs, more grains, more veggies... etc. HE'S losing weight because of it, but I'm not. Anyway, my feelings were pretty hurt and I'm not sure how to approach him again after this. He knows he hurt my feelings too. Yes, I need to lose weight and I'm working on it. Hard. He knows this.
So who says that to their wife? Oh yeah, the same guy who didn't get a birthday card or a Mother's Day card this past year, and blamed not even SAYING Happy Birthday or Happy Mother's Day on "being tired." He's a great guy but he's seriously lacking in the sensitivity department lately. So partly because of that, I'm probably considering the bypass surgery more than I would be otherwise. Which in my case, "as I've said, "otherwise" would be "not at all."